the past...

* lost a baby...
* depress...
* lost in love...
* on my own...
* lost myself...
* lost focus...
* lost (gain) some friends...
* lost in work...
* lost creditibility...
* wasted money...
* gain weight...
* wasted time...
* married...
* lost my love...
* lost trust...
* super depress...
* hurt my love...
* hurt my family
* hurt my friends...
* hurt myself...
* sick...
* under perform...
* hate myself...
* cont' lost myself...

what am i...
what i am doing...
i don't know...